On the cosmic scale, the strength of a being is not measured by its physical capability, but by its capacity to manipulate awareness. It follows that if we are to take the next evolutionary step, it must be done by means of discipline, determination, and strategy. Those are our weapons. In order to manipulate and understand the emanations which arrive to our senses, sorcerers develop the power of their attention, sharpening it through discipline to exquisite levels, which allow them to transcend human limitations and to fulfill all the possibilities of perception. Their concentration is so intense that they can penetrate the thick armor of appearances, and expose the essence of things. ~ Carlos Castaneda, Encounters with the Nagual
Recapitulation Complete? Check.
Mold of Man Broken? Check.
Personal History Erased? Check.
Death as an Advisor? Check.
Predator Defeated? Check.
It seemed impossible. Diligently walking the path of the warrior towards total freedom while being constantly mindful to use what Carlos referred to as the weapons of discipline, determination and strategy has had its payoffs. It seemed an arduous task, and it was; breaking the patterns, unplugging from the man-made matrix, experiencing the Toltec mysteries, traveling throughout Mexico, taking the journeys, abstract flights, meeting other warriors, writing, writing, and writing.
Through aligning with intent, a new band of awareness has emerged at where everything’s different and yet, familiar. Minimal words to express it since there are no patterns consistently reinforcing it, no repetitive stories available with which to compare it. Uncharted territory to which there is no context, no framework to hold it together. The framework would, I suppose, be the structure from which new myths are born, and yet, a warrior of freedom touches everyone and everything sparingly…moving gently and leaving no trace.
The big question is, and now what? Life is indeed an illusion and on the other side of illusion is total emptiness devoid of the myths, the drama, the battles with the ego, and the glory of the hero’s journey. Sought after words to describe a new state of being don’t come. Human concepts lie in still, green pools, stagnating and rotting away while at the same time having the ultimate experience of witnessing the awesomeness and beauty of the earth, constantly unfolding, changing, evolving. The quietude is a foreigner in my being.
So, how does a warrior proceed within a new band of awareness once total freedom and the ultimate emptiness is achieved if they cannot exist independently upon their causes and upon their parts of which they are dependent? Do they simply exist and co-exist as observers, as awareness? What exactly does one perceive from a state of emptiness? Does pure awareness even include perception or does perception become like most everything else, an empty concept that loses its meaning when there is nothing left to reflect it?
Carlos didn’t write about this, in fact, there is really not much written about it anywhere. I guess it’s time to explore uncharted territory from within this new band of awareness to find out. The end of another era and the beginning of a new one; intent, intent, INTENT! Evolution! I sincerely hope that there are words to share. Dancing towards infinity!