On the cosmic scale, the strength of a being is not measured by its physical capability, but by its capacity to manipulate awareness. It follows that if we are to take the next evolutionary step, it must be done by means of discipline, determination, and strategy. Those are our weapons. In order to manipulate and understand the emanations which arrive to our senses, sorcerers develop the power of their attention, sharpening it through discipline to exquisite levels, which allow them to transcend human limitations and to fulfill all the possibilities of perception. Their concentration is so intense that they can penetrate the thick armor of appearances, and expose the essence of things. ~ Carlos Castaneda, Encounters with the Nagual
The only thing that prevents us from evolving into states of consistent, heightened awareness and transcendence of human limitations is ourselves. Oh how easy it is to consistently fall back into the stories and patterns that we have been taught to perceive! The force behind collective coercion is so strong, so reasonable and so unified. Well yeah, exactly why we chose the path of the warrior.
Once we recapitulate the stories of our childhood and early adult conditioning we experience a new-found freedom that lets us take a closer look at our foundational make-up. Realizing that we no longer need to uphold certain traits and characteristics, we begin to recreate ourselves by embodying the things we felt deprived of while we were forced to fit the mold of man that was imposed upon us.
At this point we become excited with the possibility of recreating ourselves and we fully immerse ourselves into new roles by learning everything there is to know about “becoming ourselves”. This can liberate us or entangle us in another pattern. If we wind up obsessed with our new role we come to realize that our assemblage points have, once again, become fixated, this time by our own doing. It is at this juncture that one decides whether to find solace in the security of her routines or to continue jumping into the abyss. The warrior jumps.
Carlos explains; the path which transforms an ordinary human being into a warrior is very arduous. Our sensation of being at the center of everything, and the need to always have the last word, is forever getting in the way. We feel important. And when one is important, any intent to change is a slow, complicated and painful process.
Discipline, determination and strategy. What motivates me on this path is the constant beauty, mystery and awe unraveling before me. I know that when I allow my assemblage point to become fixated, everything comes to a screeching halt, becomes tedious and I can feel myself solidifying. This alone is the reminder I need to remain disciplined and determined enough to constantly strive for fluidity by recapitulating often and aligning with creation in every moment.
I also recognize when I become full of myself by thinking that my dedication to this path really pays off because I come to hold so much awareness and I pat myself on the back and say, “good work!” When I get to this point I realize how full of shit I am and I recapitulate the awareness I think I hold so I can lose that bit of self-importance, holding on to nothing and becoming empty again.
When we can admit that we know nothing is when we are able to perceive the fullness of creation and then we come to realize how very little we actually know and the only thing left to do is to seek to know something new, the never-ending and fulfilling battle for awareness. And this is the ultimate gift, to keep dancing the dance of emptiness, of fluidity, of eternal evolution!
Discipline, as understood by a warrior, is creative, open, and produces freedom. It is the ability to face the unknown, transforming the feeling of knowing into reverent astonishment; of considering things that exceed the scope of our habits, and daring to face the only war that is worthwhile: The battle for awareness. ~ Carlos Castaneda, Encounters with the Nagual