The old seers saw that the earth has a cocoon. They saw that there is a ball encasing the earth, a luminous cocoon that entraps the Eagle’s emanations. The earth is a gigantic sentient being subjected to the same forces we are. ~ don Juan, The Fire from Within
Everything has a luminous cocoon, emanations of energy that seek to align with the familiar patterns of our daily lives ultimately settling into the customary position of the assemblage point. As warriors of awareness, we strive to keep our assemblage point fluid in order to avoid repeating the patterns that a fixated assemblage point maintains.
Routine is a comfort to most people whereas a state of flux is often dreaded and feared. Routine ensures that everything remains status quo and predictable and offers one the opportunity to remain in control or at least, feel as though they have some control over their lives. This has been my challenge for the past nine months, relinquishing control in order to completely loosen my assemblage point from the position of what is familiar and instead, move into a state of perceiving energy directly while completely aligned with the sea of awareness. This is one of the most difficult and arduous things I have ever done on my path as a warrior and I am constantly kept on notice to not fall back into the safety net of predictability, comfort and control.
Every morning when I wake up I offer gratitude for my life even though at times I’m not even quite sure of what it is that I am grateful for other than the simple gift of just being. I silently repeat that there is nothing for me to do except trust and surrender. It’s not necessarily the trust and surrender that some higher divine power will provide me with exactly what I need at any given moment although that has completely unfolded; it is the trust and surrender that relinquishes my desire to control or even create anything in terms of manifesting although things are manifesting. It is the utter fluidity that allows me to align with the sea of awareness and from that point of freedom become aligned with all emanations simultaneously. The emanations are what I often refer to as the lines of awareness. The state of trust and surrender is complete and total alignment with intent.
Everything is new and yet there are no words to explain it. I try so hard to put into words the beauty, simplicity and freshness that exists within the sea of awareness and those words sound so trite and repetitious. There is nothing more really besides just being aligned with intent, just being in the flow and yet, even these words so minimize the state of being within this unfathomable sea.
2012 has been the year of total unplugging. This year I quit my job, sold my house, released my belongings, changed my phone number and have been living in a state of constant flux. It is amazing to see how fast old patterns attempt to re-emerge in order to fixate the position of the assemblage point, provide a safety net and ultimately, limit the experience of total freedom. Even more amazing, in this ultimate recapitulation, is the sheer size and density of the predator. It has it’s emanations in everything and I do mean everything. I can’t help but think that we are, indeed, being observed by a “power” that somehow feels it is their duty to keep us aligned within a specific and limited band of awareness.
In the above quote, I have seen that ball (I call it the net) that encases the earth, the luminous cocoon. It’s both beautiful and terrifying. Beautiful because it is sparkly and glowing and dripping luminosity and intricately woven. And terrifying because it is there at all.
So now I just keep dancing. There really is nothing more to do, nothing to say, nowhere to go. Just keep dancing.
Yeah, made the scene, week to week, day to day, hour to hour, The gate is straight, deep and wide. Break on through to the other side, Break on through to the other side. Break on through, break on through, Break on through, break on through. ~ Jim Morrison